Ash….I can tell you what’s been happening but I have a feeling you see it. I’ve made mistakes but I’ve done so much good and given my all. This world is that much more tough without you. We spoke, we argued, a year passed, and the next time I saw you was at the viewing. I just wanted one more day with you and you came to me in that dream. We just sat back and talked. You’re welcomed at any time of the day or during my sleep to come back lol. The memories of you will never fade. With everything happening right now I feel you looking over me and sometimes I feel like you’re sitting right across from me. You’ve made me stronger and weaker at the same time. You’ve made me want to succeed in everything and at the same time give up. The most important thing I’ve learned from you is to cherish the moments and embrace the present. THANK YOU for being you. We are brothers throughout eternity and nothing will break that bond. We all miss you and please stay close to me. I need you everyday. I know I’m not the only one that loves you. You saw and felt the pain we all have endured through this past year. See you again one day. I love you.
My little pickled onion head
You hated me telling people I called you that and you hated it when you were little or maybe you secretly liked it… I can’t ask you anymore.
You were my little brother I loved you since the day I saw you in the hospital screaming. You had everything or so we thought – family, children successful job, but it was never enough to overcome the demons that were living in your head. That day I found out you were missing I knew you had left us. I have never felt anything like it. I tried to stay strong for mom and dad and your family but deep down you had left us and I knew.
What went through your head standing on a bridge after a nice night out? Was it a split minute decision? I don’t know… what I do know is that I will miss you until the day I die. I keep waiting for you to ring and say they got it wrong but they won’t. I don’t know how to move on without you. How do you get over this? I live with knowing you were my handsome little brother and I love you. xxx…
Remembering Dylan
I miss you…
Little brother
I miss you so much bud. I still cannot figure out why someone so young would think that this was the answer. It’s only been two and a half months, but it feels like years. I swear i hear you laughing in your room at times, and everytime i do i have to check just in case you came back. I forget what happened every day, then i relive it. I love you so much buddy. The world is so much duller without you. I wish i would have known how you were feeling. I suppose it’s too late now. You changed the lives of so many people. I forgive you, and i will always love you.
my younger brother jeff
my 27yr old brother jeff struggled yrs with depression that turned into drug abuse and on oct 8th 2016 7pm turned into him shooting himself at a friends house in his kitchen i realize that suicide has no good timing or reason he found out him and his girlfriend were going to have a baby boy the day before he did this my kids loved him we loved him he had to know he was ganna break our hearts that day and it wasnt enough to keep him here i would hope anyone thinking of doing that would put in the work required to find reasons in there life ppl hobbies help my brother didnt and thats the hardest part he didnt wait to see his son he didnt get councling he did drugs and made it worse harder for him to cope
Grateful for the brother you have been to me
Among all the comments and questions people have about your death, the one that I truly appreciate is, “Tell me about your brother.” There is so much to tell. You were, deservedly so, the favorite child, because you made the most time for our parents. You were gentle, kind, considerate, and funny. When you asked my children about their lives, you actually listened to their responses! Most of all, I knew that you loved each of us.
Your death is still so recent, that I hover between guilt and anger. But I know that I can’t let this one terrible choice you made erase all the happy times we have spent together. You are so loved, dear brother, and you always will be.
dear mookie
mookie,
my heart is so torn right now. I cannot believe what you did and how many lives have been affected. we are all hurting now, and if anyone had known of the pain and anguish your soul was dealing with we would have helped you. I wish you would have come to me because now every part of me is desperate to hear your voice, to feel your touch, just one more day with you sister. everyone misses you. I love you so much sister and I wish there was some way to rewind the days, and maybe just maybe you would still be here now.
love always, I am broken hearted and confused,
meko
Since you been gone
Oh my dear sweet little brother,since you been gone social media is so popular,so many things have changed since you been gone,everyone told me it would get easier,I’d like to know when,since you been gone,every year on your birthday is so hard for me,all I can think about is how you & I will be same age from 10.15 to 11.15,if you think about it your the only male that’s played such a role in my life as long as you have,you were there the first time I received a bad grade in school,you were there the first time I had my heart broken,you were there when I found & married my true love,you were there when I had my one & only child,since you been gone I will be a grandma for the 1st time,I just wish I could’ve stopped you that day you decided to take your life,how did I not know you were in such a dark place,we were always so close,I know we came from a large family,reason you & I were so close is because we felt like we were twins,after all only 11 months apart,I love you & miss you so much,happy 55th birthday little brother I love you,good bye for now I know we’ll meet again. With all my love sister Linda
Sibling Inspiration Submission Sent – For Leigh
I wish we had more time. I wish I didn’t get so mad so quickly. I miss you so much – you still had more to learn, more to give. first we lost dad, now I have to deal with the loss of you. you always looked after me and made sure I had what I needed. you were the best big brother and best second dad. I’m so sorry horrible things have happened to you and you felt no other way to be able to fight your demons off. you always knew how to make me smile or laugh or even get extremely angry. I will always remember you and I will never ever forget. you are my brother forever. I love you Leigh. I hope you’re having a good time with dad. I miss you – 2/9/86-2/9/16.
To Jack
I still think about May 23rd every day and the shock and horror i felt on that day have turned into sadness, regret, and often anger. I dont know why you did what you did really, its hard to understand but at the same time i can relate to not wanting to be in this world anymore. Im so sorry i didnt realize what you were going through, I didnt see any signs, none of us did. I hate to put the blame on anyone but maybe we just werent paying enough attention when you were trying to reach out. Im so sorry i wasnt there for you. We all are. And id like to think if you could change what happened you would, and you would be here with us. But i have to accept that you are gone and just hope that you are happy and safe now. I still think about the pain you must have felt, how scared you were to disappoint mom and dad over such a little thing. They are so proud of u