I miss my brother so much his name was Mitchell I lost him to Suicide 3 weeks ago. He was only 28. He was my only brother and 9 years younger than me. He had a big court case coming up and he was afraid to go to jail even though we were getting him a lawyer. I can’t believe he did this. He was very depressed and felt he wasn’t going anywhere in life, no job, no wife, no kids and still living with my mom. He was on a lot of pills for depression. I miss him so much and I talk to him all the time. He believed in God and I just pray he is in heaven with God and our dad who died when my brother was only 12. Mitchell missed him a lot and I pray he’s ok and happy now and not in pain. It’s just so so so difficult to know he had the courage to shoot himself. I miss him and just want to talk to him. I pray it will get better. I have to take care of my 68 year old mom and my 1 year old son and it’s so hard. I love and miss Mitchell so very much.


7 thoughts on “Mitchell

  1. I lost my brother too he was 34 if you need to talk email me he passed away this February it ain’t easy I really feel your pain and your mom’s I’m so sorry

  2. My brother took his life almost a year ago. He too had a case going to court due to his on and off again girlfriend. He is in heaven with our mom. I feel him around me all the time. I never thought in a million years he would do this. My heart is broken

  3. I lost my brother a week ago. He was only 35. I feel so lost. I hope to find peace one day but it seems like it will never come. I hope it will for us all.

  4. I also lost my sibling the same day as a court case. I believe she panicked. What you wrote is very similar to our situation and how I feel. I have so much regret and sadness. But I’m praying that God is taking care of her now and she is free of pain.

  5. The Lord is my shepherd; I shall not want. He maketh me to lie down in green pastures: he leadeth me beside the still waters.
    He restoreth my soul: he leadeth me in the paths of righteousness for his name’s sake.
    Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for thou art with me; thy rod and thy staff they comfort me.
    Thou preparest a table before me in the presence of mine enemies: thou anointest my head with oil; my cup runneth over.
    Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life: and I will dwell in the house of the Lord for ever.

    Im so sorry for your loss. But please, never forget, God is with you and with your beloved ones even if they are no longer here. all my ove to you guys!

  6. My little brother Mitchell committed suicide on November 10th, 1999. He was 44. We were very close, being just 15 months apart in age. I found your post when I searched for the name Mitchell on this site. I’m so sorry for your loss. Years ago I posted here about the pain his death has caused me. A suicide hotline, the Heidorn Lifeline, was established by his partner at The Center for Children in San Diego. It is still operating 18 years later.
    (858) 212-LIFE (5433) It allows him to live on in a way that he couldn’t while here on Earth. I knew that he wanted to die but I was powerless to stop him. The guilt was tremendous. That has lessened a bit over the years but the heartache hasn’t. But I know that the love that we have for each other lives on.

    1. Nancy–
      I knew Mitchell back in the early 80s. We shared an apartment in Oak Park and kept in touch after he moved to the L.A. I was out to visit him later that year and met your mother at the same time. When my mother passed, Mitchell wrote me a very heartfelt note of sympathy, telling me of his mother’s earlier passing. I still have a caricature of Mitchell in red chalk (he forgot to take with him when he moved to L.A.). I last spoke with him just before he moved into that efficiency in San Diego. I knew he was very unhappy at the time, but did not know how serious it was. He was a very good friend and I cherish his memory.

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