You and I, we are the same. You were the one person on earth to be so much like me and you took your own life. Is it going to happen to me, too? I have been living with depression for years, just like you. Genetically, we are alike. Raised in the same environment, so if you as my big brother couldn’t stand the world, how will I survive? I try so hard to be okay, to snap out of it but most days I am hardly breathing really. So am I gonna suffer the same fate too? I am so lost without you, it feels so incomplete, this world, it feels so incomplete without you. Most days I don’t want to be here anymore, I just want to be with you. To know you are okay, to know you finally found rest. Please if you can, come to me in my dreams and tell you are okay. Just once, I just need to know you are okay. I need you to know I love you, so far you have been the biggest influence of my life. I love you so much.
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Has he came to you in your dreams yet?
My brother comes to me sometimes when I’m really stressed out. It will be 3 years in a few weeks. Seems like a lifetime…..
I feel this so much, all of it. When the person I’ve always strived to be didn’t think his life was worth living, where does that leave me? But more so, just where are you – please give me anything..even if we didn’t talk often, you were a compass for my life..and I am so lost now