I love you Spencer. Since May 2nd I haven’t ever slept a whole night, and my friends think I look tired and don’t function right because I am busy with sports and school ( I ran in state track for you, even though it was hard). I don’t have enough strength to tell them and I’m not positive I should.
I wish mom knew that I was going through the same thing, everyone worries about her the most. They don’t realize that I lost a brother, partner in crime, friends, and most importantly: a chunk of my heart. Mom says she has a hard time but she forgets about me, she says “My life is hard enough right now, and I don’t need it any harder”. She says it like I didn’t go through the same thing. Nobody asks if I am sleeping well because they know mom is on medications for everything. I wish you didn’t leave us, you make everything better. You thought of me, even when all the attention was on something else. I miss you, I love you. I just want my big brother back. Love, Your little sister