My brother, my friend

Just buried my brother on April 1. I lost my best friend, my protector, and older brother to suicide. I swear I can still hear him walk through my house and call my name. There is not a day that has gone by that I don’t cry. My birthday was 4 days later; it was the second worst day of my life. I am 33 – my brother would be 37 in July. Is this pain going to ease? I’m lost without my friend. I’m confused – why? Why did he have to come to my house and shoot himself in my driveway? We have always been so close…why would he do this to me?


2 thoughts on “My brother, my friend

  1. I am so sorry for your loss. I lost my older and only brother to suicide March 12th. Currently feeling your pain too. I wish there was a way to help deal with this pain. To make it better. It is hard for me to form words lately, I just seems that I am lost and confused. I just found this website and hope that we can help each other out.

  2. Hi your story is incredible, don’t blame his pain was unreal. I just lost my brother on February 5th same result different way though I’m 39 my brother is 34 I think you and I are going thru the same thing if you ever need a friend I’m here. There is no easy way out of this because if your like me on that day my heart was torn to pieces and then stepped on and burned nothing will ever compare to that and I know it my birthday is tomorrow second worse day since that day I’m having a hard time thinking that if I live another 10 20 or more years without him I can’t even imagine that today I hope you see my pain I see yours I’m so sorry email any time.

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