Today, I start the rest of my life without you. How does one feel so badly and show no signs of it? You and I have been the only survivors of our family of 5 since 1982. How could you leave me. How could you leave your family? I am so angry, I can’t calm down. I am so sad, I can’t stop crying. How could you do this???? My God! You were the most kindest, loving soul and were so loved. Good-by Li’L Bro. I love you.
I’m so sorry for your loss. My baby brother did the same three years ago and I am no better, no wiser, isolated and sad. Time? It doesn’t heal the wound, you learn to cope. Keep the memory of him alive in all the ways you can. I wrote in a journal, I put his picture next to flowers and I kiss that picture and I even dream about him a lot. It is so painful but there is hope. Just like your brother, we had no idea. Much love and hugs to you. It will never make sense but you will cope.