Guilty (SiblingsSurvivors Guest Post)

It’s not an exaggeration. She died because of me.
I still can’t forgive myself six years later. You died because of me. We were the same person but you knew I couldn’t take care of us both so you made the decision for us. The rest of our siblings blame me. Our parents blame me. I blame me. I miss you so much and I can’t move on. I work to forget this pain, but when I am in my own life all I can do is miss you. I am not depressed or lonely I am alone and I haven’t found anything like the love we had. I can not build any relationships because to others my pain is ugly. I miss you. I’m sorry for driving you away little sister. I’m sorry for not taking care of you.

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2 Responses to Guilty (SiblingsSurvivors Guest Post)

  1. Karen Prieto says:

    Don’t blame yourself. Some decisions our way out of our hands. My brother also killed himself in Nov. He was suffering with mental illness. 2017 was a roller coaster year of trying to figure out what was wrong with him after he went missing. We all tried but we could not help him. Ultimately he made a terrible decision. And none of our Family will ever be the same. I miss him dearly!

  2. ana says:

    Why do you blame yourself? What happened? You can talk to me if you want. Don’t punish yourself.
    My brother took his life 6 years ago. I’m sure my father blames himself for not paying attention or for denial, but it’s no one’s fault. Word.

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