Baby Brother (SiblingsSurvivors Guest Post)

Subject: Baby Brother

Dear CJ
Its been 3 weeks today. Mondays suck. They are the worse. I cant help loon at the clock and think about when u left the house, drove to the park, and put the gun to your head.
U left me here alone. It was me and u. What am i suppose to do with mom and dad? U were suppose to help me make decisions but here i am….now an only child. WTF were u thinking?
The cancer diagnosis was something we could have worked through. Instead u left us heart broken. What am i suppose to tell DE about his Uncle when he asks. U were his god parent. Did u think of that when u decided to put a bullet in ur brain?
Do u know im seeking therapy becuse i cant look at my duty weapon without having thoughts myself???
I dont understand…….
I love and miss u so much……
This is a nighmare i cant get out of…..
I cant stop crying……
My heart aches……
U left me……now an only child that i dont want to be.

2 thoughts on “Baby Brother (SiblingsSurvivors Guest Post)

  1. I just want you to know I love you. And I understand completely. My brother committed suicide 2 weeks ago today. And I’m so numb and heart broken. Not sure when it will get better…. just seems to be getting worse. But I can promise you… you’ll be in my prayers every single day. </3

  2. I pray for you you both and I completely understand what you people are going through.

    I lost my baby brother 1 month ago. 24 years young. He was the greatest guy. We were always best friends, fighting the good fight together and only siblings. I loved him more than anything in this world. He always knew the right things to say. I knew he had been out of work for a while. Had some trouble with alcohol during this past summer.

    I still had no idea, I know for sure he’s been battling depression silently because I had no clue. There’s an overwhelming pain in my guts, I can’t believe he is gone. I will always remember the good times we had, I won’t go anywhere without those memories.

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