6 Months Down

You have been gone for a little over 6 months now. It feels like everything just happened yesterday. The phone call from the detective, talking to my parents, telling my boyfriend. I had to identify your body and plan your funeral. Most days I’m sad, other days I’m angry, and most of all I feel guilty. I feel like I let you down and like you let me down. There was nothing we couldn’t get over together. You were only 26 and I’m only 28. We had our whole futures ahead of us. I feel like you abandoned me. All I do is look at videos and pictures of you and us together. I don’t know how I’ll go on the rest of my life with you.

One thought on “6 Months Down

  1. Heartbreaking. I hope you know there are people you can talk to if you ever need it. My sister took her life just under 13 years ago. I wish I could say the pain goes away, but that would be a lie. The pain will be there forever. The what ifs the what else could I have done. Just remember the good times and take it day by day. You are on this earth for a reason. Maybe that’s to keep your siblings memory alive.

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