On July 19, 2025 at 8pm I FaceTimed my sister to ask to borrow her car the next day to check up on some employees incognito, she said she couldn’t let me because she was going to church in the morning. I found that strange and even questioned her on it because she rarely goes to church and has never gone alone. She answered all my concerned questions and then got quiet. I asked her what was going on, why she wasnt talking and she shrugged her shoulders and I got annoyed and said fine I wont call you then, she stopped me from hanging up and just kinda said sorry I said no worries ill let you go and then thats where my world shatters… I said I love you and she said I love you too and we both paused for a minute and I saw something was off in her eyes, I didnt know what but I could sense it and Ill hate myself for ever for not going over there.
At midnight she left her house and 4 hours later she text 911 she was going to end it and where they could find her body, so that we didnt. She had left behind a 6 page letter and no answers. Its been 25 days and the guilt and the what ifs are keeping me from being able to breathe most days. There weren’t any signs ever until that last call and I just thought ill talk to her tomorrow when shes ready to tell me what’s wrong. Ill never get that talk and the look in her eyes will haunt me for the rest of my life. She wasnt just my baby sister, she was my best friend and we were all we had growing up. Im so lost without her