Two years ago, on the 22nd June 2023, my older and only brother decided to take his own life.My life fell apart. I was completely trapped during the first year. I had to deal with a multitude of emotions, such as anger, guilt, feeling isolated, paralyzed, and even some that haven’t even been named yet. I couldn’t remember the good times with him.

I was able to enjoy my brother’s company when I was a kid and young adult, listening to music for hours together, traveling together, playing sports together, watching TV together, playing video games together, and learning together. He was my protector. I loved his sense of humor. I miss him so much. I hope you are well wherever you are, my beloved brother, it really hurts not to see you. I’m really sorry that I couldn’t help you.

The best way to honor you is to live my life, to do the things we both loved, to laugh at the same things we laughed at, that’s what you wanted for me and that’s what I will do.

There’s a huge stigma and taboo about people who decide to commit suicide. They have a very high level of suffering from life’s problems. No one has the right to judge them or the people around them. It’s important to explain to society that grief for suicide isn’t the same as a natural death or even an accident; nobody should never compare your grief to someone else’s.