Hi brother. I miss you; but what’s new?!
My house is a home right now. It feels so good to wake up here. I have everything I need. Starting my day feels ease these days. WHAT I WOULD DO TO HAVE YOU OVER. My whole life you decorate every room I had until my early 20s. I’m 33 now, 3 years older than you ever got to be – weird because I’m your little sister. I remember crying so hard on my 31st birthday; knowing I was passing your earth age. Speaking of, your birthdays coming up. March 25. This will be your 4th birthday absent; we will celebrate you anyways. I miss you brother.
B R E A T H
Well, I always think of you when I’m decorating my house. I could use your help, some guidance. I’m just not good at it. Previous years I would cry so hard because you weren’t here. Of course in the beginning it was a real angry cry – so mad at you; but today….. I am typing thus far without a tear. Probably my first post of many on this site. Don’t get me wrong, I still cry for you – realllllll ugly cries. Right now, I feel at peace; Lately I’ve been cocooning. More reason to have you here with me. I wish we could share food recipes. I miss you cooking for me. You’d be impressed by my skills in the kitchen.Ugh.. I am reminded that I’m still growing without you. I still don’t understand how. How I’m existing this long without you. Oh hey, there’s those tears. Hahaha gaddddamn.
It still hurts. My throat skill tightens up along with my chest. That weird congestion feeling, the tears, that physical pain in heart. Steven, I miss you so freaking much.Please please please give Mom and brother some of your radiant energy. I know they could use it these days. I’m okay over here, but still missing you always. XO XO
My house is a home right now. It feels so good to wake up here. I have everything I need. Starting my day feels ease these days. WHAT I WOULD DO TO HAVE YOU OVER. My whole life you decorate every room I had until my early 20s. I’m 33 now, 3 years older than you ever got to be – weird because I’m your little sister. I remember crying so hard on my 31st birthday; knowing I was passing your earth age. Speaking of, your birthdays coming up. March 25. This will be your 4th birthday absent; we will celebrate you anyways. I miss you brother.
B R E A T H
Well, I always think of you when I’m decorating my house. I could use your help, some guidance. I’m just not good at it. Previous years I would cry so hard because you weren’t here. Of course in the beginning it was a real angry cry – so mad at you; but today….. I am typing thus far without a tear. Probably my first post of many on this site. Don’t get me wrong, I still cry for you – realllllll ugly cries. Right now, I feel at peace; Lately I’ve been cocooning. More reason to have you here with me. I wish we could share food recipes. I miss you cooking for me. You’d be impressed by my skills in the kitchen.Ugh.. I am reminded that I’m still growing without you. I still don’t understand how. How I’m existing this long without you. Oh hey, there’s those tears. Hahaha gaddddamn.
It still hurts. My throat skill tightens up along with my chest. That weird congestion feeling, the tears, that physical pain in heart. Steven, I miss you so freaking much.Please please please give Mom and brother some of your radiant energy. I know they could use it these days. I’m okay over here, but still missing you always. XO XO
F. Pooh
