5 year mark

12/24/2009 R.I.P. Captain Kochavi. I love you, big sis. Five years is looming on the horizon and I feel compelled to touch the grief and be close to you again. Stopping to consider the purpose in my own life threatens to bring me back to the despair of losing you. I write songs for you and I even registered a copyright this year for one. it is a comfort to me to sing it, but painful to sing it to others. To any new survivors- please hang in there one breath at a time. Life is bittersweet, but there may be new joys to experience down the road. Please touch base and get help with the sorrow. Peace to all. (I love you, Mariah, and look forward to the day I will see you again)


4 thoughts on “5 year mark

  1. Clay, tho your name is not on this new post I will never forget it. I could feel your sorrow thru your words from posts several years ago when I read them. If you are ever willing I would love to hear your song.

    Missing my brother Sam too.

  2. Clay is that you? You have been on my mind recently.
    Keep breathing. Stay strong and thanks for encouraging us all. One day at a time, my dear.

  3. Clay, I am so sorry for your loss. I pray that we all find the peace we need to cope with our daily lives. Please share your songs and let the world know what an amazing person your sister was. As Kirsten says, one day at a time.

  4. I lost my older brother 12/24/11. I think about him all the time, and it effects me differently every day. His birthday 25th birthday is tomorrow. I do not know you or your sister, but I do know what it is like to lose your sibling on Christmas Eve. I believe my brother comes to me through music, and I think it is amazing that you write songs for your sister.

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