Miss you, baby brother (SiblingsSurvivors Guest Post)

Subject: Miss you, baby brother

My baby brother hung himself in his home, 4 months ago. We were close, and I never saw this coming. He’d been depressed for the last month and a half before he took his own life. We talked often, I still didn’t see this coming. He was having marriage troubles, was working in getting his license back, and had some debt he needed to clear up. I was helping him get back on track. He came home from work early in the 12th anniversary of our fathers death and caught his wife with one of his best friends (who also happened to be our cousin). That was it. No note, nothing. I miss him so much. I try so hard to block out the “what if’s”. But it’s hard. Aside from the month a half before he died, he was always happy go lucky. I miss him so much. It’s a pain that you can’t describe and a pain that only anyone who’s ever lost a loved one to suicide, can ever understand. I know that time is supposed to help. But I feel like it’s getting worse. I miss him more and more everyday. Til we meet again, baby brother. I love you!

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8 Responses to Miss you, baby brother (SiblingsSurvivors Guest Post)

  1. Bridgette says:

    I know this pain. Sorry. ? ❤

  2. Romina says:

    So sorry for your loss. Sorry for your brother, too, that he was in so much pain. Now we live the next 40 – 60 years and we enjoy them as much as we can while missing our them. Because 40-60 years is just a heartbeat in the history of the world, and then we’ll see them again.

    • Virginia says:

      It’s crazy how life really does just go on. We will see them again! That’s the only thing that keeps me going some days…

  3. John says:

    Besides only a few details your post is my post. I buried my younger Brother today. The Grief, Anger,helplessness I feel is more than I can take.He was 46 years old has a 25 year old Son, Just bought a home and had a beautiful new girlfriend. I dont understand and probably will never.He easy always joking and would literally take the shirt off his back for a complete strange in need.we were like probably every other siblings.Fighting over stupid stuff not talking for months at a time and other times we were the best,it didnt matter. if one of us was in trouble or pain the other would come running.We lost our Mother almost 2 years ago and he was a little differant since then. I have been in the Military and have seen death up close, buried 2 parents and nothing compares to this. HE Was my Brother and my bestfriend.

  4. Jean says:

    I’m so sorry, I lost my brother only a few weeks ago so I am just so sorry for the pain you are in xx

    • Virginia says:

      I am so sorry! It’s so surreal, isn’t it?! It’s like a horrible nightmare that we need to wake up from. Now we live the rest of our lives without them.

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