I have 7 siblings. 4 sisters and 3 brothers. We have been shattered by suicide. November 2013 my beautiful baby sister attended a birthday party for my daughter. She seemed sad and told me she was sad. I did not take the time to talk. She took her own life the next day. The last words I said to her was I love you as she drove away. The wake of devastation that has rippled through our family since that day has been un-measursble. All of my siblings, myself included have pretty much had to deal with this without any professional help. We’ve just muddled through. There are no words to describe the plethora of complex emotions and pain, emotional and yes physical pain. What the hell are we supposed to do? 2016 my brother took his own life as well….it was too much! He left behind a daughter, who wants nothing to do with our family anymore. Our Mom passed away from cancer last year. She lived with it for 10 years. I honestly believe she developed cancer trying to deal with the loss of my sister. I lay in bed tonight reflecting on all of this and I am in utter disbelief that all of this has happened. What do we do? What do I do?
