Its been 3 months since my sister drank and pilled herself to death.ive found depressed writings and evidence of mental illness as far back as 9 years old while going through her things. This poor woman was the only one who couldnt see how vibrant,beautiful,intelligent, and magnetic she was. She made it 34 long years in this world. Poor thing was so alone for too damn long. I miss her so much and i hear her laugh everytime i close my eyes. My poor mother, my poor father, my poor OTHER sister. I was her brother, i was suppose to protect her. But i just wasnt close enough for this attempt. I miss her so, she was my buddy. Love you bean!