It’s been a month since you left.

It’s been a month since I last saw you!!! Oh how I miss you, not a day has gone by that I do not think of you. I beg God to let me see you, even if it’s just in my dreams. Mom is still crying day and night; she is devastated and nothing or no one can console her..Dad is trying to move on but he needs help getting past the vision of seeing you laying on your bed after you did that horrible thing! I am taking him with me to a grief group in hopes that we might find some comfort… Serg you left our hearts completely destroyed. We helped you every way possible. We were such a close and loving family. WHY WHY WHY, I guess we will never know. Your boys are ok. They have been sick but promised to come see us tomorrow. They too need lots of love because they are suffering without you around, but I promise to watch over them… I am so sorry you felt so low that your only solution was to leave. I am so sorry we weren’t enough for you to want to stay and I am so sorry that I didn’t tell you how proud I was to be your sister. I AM JUST SORRY for whatever we did wrong. I will always love you and I can’t wait to see you again so I can hug you tight and never let go. Sweet dreams always and hope you are happy like you deserve to be.

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4 Responses to It’s been a month since you left.

  1. Josh says:

    I am a brother and just reading your message stopped me from committing suicide. Thank you. And you are loved by a stranger.

    • Cynthia says:

      Josh thank you so much for this touching message please know you are loved as well… YOU are strong and trust me your life is extremely important, seek help; stay close to god.. I wish my brother would have because I know in my heart he would still be here. We are devastated beyond belief I cry everyday for him I miss him so much. Think about those who love you because I guarantee you that without you their life will have no meaning. God bless you and although we are strangers we will always have a connection because just as I helped you, YOU helped me.

  2. Heather Martinez says:

    Hi there my younger and only sister left me/us 7/31/17 and I have to say I feel all the same things you described. All of the sorrys.i wish I would have told my sister so many things, I wish I would have let her know how much I did care and love her. Also that she was hurting so bad and I wish I could of helped. She also left behind 2 boys and just like you I will do my best to watch over them. You are not alone…..sending hugs 🤗

    • Cynthia says:

      Heather I am so sorry you are going through the same pain as I. I thank you for your beautiful message and although its not a good outcome it’s good that together we can comfort each other. God bless you and although we do not know each other please know that I will pray for you and your family to find peace and please do the same for all of us going through these terrible tragedies.. Love Always, Cynthia

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