I miss you sis

 

Kat,

 

Today marks 2 months since you died. 11/2/15. I miss you SO SO much. The only silver lining is that you are truly out of pain, I know you couldn’t live any longer in this world and you finally succeeded in a way we couldn’t just bring you to the hospital and pump your stomach.

I feel like my childhood is gone. I have all these memories flooding back, secrets and inside jokes that only WE shared. Because that’s what sisters do. This is much different than when dad died 5 years ago. He was my rock, my hero, and his death devastated us both. I wish he was here to comfort me. I’m 31 and my dad is dead and my sister is dead and I’m only left with mom. She did something last night and YOU are the only person who would understand why it was hurtful. You knew me better than anyone. But this is a different type of grief because siblings share something special. Something I didn’t realize until the day you died. A bond that is different than others.

I hope you know how much I loved you (well still do..) There is so much more I want to say to you. But I am hurting and missing you terribly. You come back now polar bear?

 

Love you always,

Your Megs

 

4 thoughts on “I miss you sis

  1. Ugh I feel your pain. My sister died by suicide a month ago and I found her. I too believe she is finally at peace but what about everyone else? She was my only sibling. Everyone always asks how are your parents, and it’s like what about me ?!?!
    I’m so sorry for your loss this is such a hard thing to go through . If you ever want to talk you can email me . I’m 33 and my sister was only 30

    1. I forgot about this website and my post until today. I guess I never got a notification?? I would love to talk to you.. I’m not sure how to contact you? My e-mail is meg622@gmail.com. Thank you, and I hope you are holding up okay. My sister was 32.. and I just turned 32 🙁

  2. Hi, I just lost my brother on Feb 5, 2016. He was 34 and left a 1 year old and a wife behind. My brother and I spoke every single day, about 2 hours a day. His suicide left me in a place I can’t get out of. I have no friends even though I’m married and I have a daughter. I’m 39 sounds weird? Once you lose that one person you could not afford to lose, then you realize the impact of that person had on your life. I love my brother more than anything. Anyway, you can email anytime. Try to picture your sister…close your eyes, focus, and give her a huge kiss and hug. Hppe it helps. I promise you will see her in the afterlife.

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