I miss him so much

It’s not even been a month that my brother hanged himself. Still not able to believe that he is no more in this world. Not able to understand why I am still alive. I feel responsible for everything he had gone through. I feel like dying. I did not speak to him as I was angry at him for few months. Before talking to him he left. I need him back.

 

4 thoughts on “I miss him so much

  1. Next week will be six months since my brother committed suicide but it still feels like it was last week. My brother and I also had a falling out. He had problems with all relationships except our mom. We lost her December before last. He couldn’t get past losing her and he was bipolar. Don’t know your beliefs but I know God has carried me through this tragedy and He will you.

  2. It was June 1st this year when my brother committed suicide. I am still in shock. He was my best friend. We got in a terrible argument a few months before and hadn’t spoken. My only consolation is that he told my husband seconds before he did it… Tell my sister I love her… If he wouldn’t have said that I would be in a much darker place than I am now. I am sorry for your loss and I understand your pain. I will be praying for you

  3. My brother killed himself August 11th, it was his second attempt. We had a horrible fight back in May and I told him to *f* off and that I never wanted to talk to him again. And I didn’t. Today I keep thinking about how horrible I was to him. I’m trying to remember to think about the good times and not focus on the bad, sometimes it works, sometimes it doesn’t. I started antidepressants last week and after a few days they seem to be making a difference. Each day I feel a little more emotionally stable, sad… but without extreme highs and lows. My thoughts are with you.

    1. My brother also took his life on August 11th. He was 16 and it was right before my 21st birthday.
      My parents and i found him and did cpr for about 30 minutes before the paramedics arrived. My thoughts are with all of you.

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