Among all the comments and questions people have about your death, the one that I truly appreciate is, “Tell me about your brother.” There is so much to tell. You were, deservedly so, the favorite child, because you made the most time for our parents. You were gentle, kind, considerate, and funny. When you asked my children about their lives, you actually listened to their responses! Most of all, I knew that you loved each of us.
Your death is still so recent, that I hover between guilt and anger. But I know that I can’t let this one terrible choice you made erase all the happy times we have spent together. You are so loved, dear brother, and you always will be.
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